Soooooo here comes the update:
The op was a great success. I was in hospital for 7.30 and in theatre for around 8.45. The surgery lasted about 5.5hrs and I woke up in recovery around 3ish. Obviously I was somewhat out of it but essentially not feeling too bad. I got to the ward for around 5. Getting comfy in bed was pretty horrendous, sitting still the pain as like a heavy ache but the moment I tried to move it was pretty horrible. It's funny you don't realise how much using your arms uses your chest too. In the end it took about 4 nurses and a slide mat thing to move me. There were tears, I'm not going to lie. Lovely Lyns stayed at hospital all day waiting to check I was ok so it was fab to see her, even if I was tired and talking morphine edged nonsense.
Sleep was very on and off that first night - patients in and out of the ward, obs being checked every hour and having to sleep upright on my back :( I did rely on morphine quite a lot that first night.
My catheter came out in the morning and I was up and about getting the loo. The pain was still relatively bad - not unbearable but not a picnic either. It was really all about snoozing the second the day and trying to get comfortable sleeping on my back.
I did rely on morphine quite a lot for the first couple of days, but if I was in pain I wasn't prepared to suffer. But after the op being on Wednesday morning, I was out of bed Tuesday and getting to the toilet by myself.
I came home on the Friday and 6 days post op I am off the morphine and only taking pain meds twice a day instead of the four times a day.
The boobs still ache, they feel very heavy and sore but it's not pain anymore. Sleeping on my back was horrible and I was only getting a few hours kip a night as it was so uncomfortable. Last night I wedged myself on the sofa on my side with a million pillows supporting me and managed 7 hrs on and off which was amazing!
But how do I feel emotionally? Well once I was out of recovery I looked down at my chest and expected to feel detached or different about what I saw but I honestly didn't. The skin is still mine, the filling is just different. They are still my boobs just perkier and a bit bigger!!! My amazing surgeon was able to preserve my areola, just remove the nipple, so although I havent seen the breasts without any dressing, I am hopeful that they wont actually look that different. There is numbness around the incision and where the nipple was but I still have sensation around the outer area's, which I didn't think I would. All in all I am happy. For me BRCA1 has had my life on hold for nearly 3 years, these past few days I have felt amazing, felt able to look to the future and feel happy about it.
Anything I have felt difficult? I do not like chest drains!!! The place they are in stitched in to me (just below the breasts) is itchy. The drains are a smidge uncomfortable and emptying them daily is a bit bleuuurrrggghhh. They are also taped really low on my abdomen so bathing has been a bit of a nightmare. Is it a major problem? not really. They will hopefully be out in a week.
Another negative is I have been plagued by constipation & acid reflux due to the medication. The constipation was quite horrendous for the first 5 days but is better now. Latchulose and plenty of ruffage (as my mum would say!!) is the way forward for that. And the acid reflux is sorted by gaviscon (make sure you buy some before you the op as I had to send my poor neighbour out at 10pm last night on a mercy mission!).
All in all I have to say that it has been a really positive experience - I was prepared for the pain and discomfort which I think helped, especially mentally. Lets just hope my recovery continues to go so well..... xx