|Brca1 and me||
So today was my first appointment at the breast clinic, well the family histories clinic to be exact. It was essentially a bit of a fact finding mission - I had to go through my family history for them and give them details of my aunt's cancers & my cousin's surgeries. My consultant was ok....very casual and laid back about the whole BRCA1 risk. Talked a lot of medical jargon without really explaining any of it, and when I asked waved it away as if it was stuff I didn't need to know. Kicking myself now obviously for not being more assertive and demanding answers, although I hadn't really gone with any questions. I know what BRCA1 means, I know what the risks are and I know what my options are. But all this I know from my family's experiences and my own research, certainly not from what the consultant told me today.
Over all I got the impression he felt I had nothing to be worried about, at the age of 30 I didn't even need to give this a thought for at least 5 years. How easily said yet impossibly done! I potentially have a rogue gene inside me that could lead to cancer....how can I not think about that?!
I had a physical examination which was as cold and clinical as his manner of speaking and he found a lump in my right breast. 'Its probably nothing' he says but of course my mind is now on overdrive. I am to come back in on Monday for an ultrasound.
I left feeling very scared.