Sobbing, tears, screeching, why me's, what if's, am I going to die.......it all came flooding out, much to Ryan's shock and horror. I felt completely and utterly unhinged. It was really quite scary.
And then there was calm.....I picked myself off the floor took a deep breath, washed my face and had a lie down. And you know it felt like my head was truly silent for the first time in a long, long time.
Ironically after my meltdown I received a call from the hospital. I can collect my test results on Friday. So this is it.